If love is purchasable,would you think that you buy it?

If it is offered at the counters,would you think that it will be this PRECIOUS?

Everyday all people ever seems to think about is love. NO. They don't say it out loud. But it is an issue that is always playing at the back of their mind. We all are just mere human beings. We need tender loving care. We need someone to accept us just the way we are. We need a hand to hold and believe in. So,if love can be bought (theoretically) would you think people will still be obsessed with it? And if u buy it,to whom shall you give it to? Forgive me for my childish and out of this world fantasies. But I couldn't ignore this fact : We all need LOVE just like we need oxygen to breathe. And so,this idea pops out.

LOVE is just a four letter word but it means so much more to us. Some people says that they don't need love and they are content with what they have.
But why are they still searching for love?
Because we just need someone to lean on.
Someone to be there for us each time we fall.
Love is this context not only refers to a partner. It can also be referred to a friend.
Love from a friend is where it all began.
Don't you think so?


First step : You know each other.
Second : You get to know each other better.
Third step : You become best friends.
Fourth step : You start to feel that something inside your heart.
Fifth step : THE CONFESSION.

These are the steps that often take place in a relationship. And it is something beautiful because without knowing each other first,how can we be certain that "he is the one"?.

There are another four letter word that gives the total opposite meaning : HATE.
It is the feeling that blinds everything else. When we hate someone,we seems to ignore the good facts about that person. We can only see the bad things.
Hate is when we don't want to hear their name being mentioned.
We don't want to see their face coz you feel like vomitting after that.
We don't want to be in their presence. AT ALL.

But with love,it's a total difference.
We want to be in their presence.
We want to see them laugh.
We want to talk to them.
Even seeing that person from afar can be give us the total calmness that we seek.
We want to know everything about them.
When they smile at us,we feel like they just give us wings to fly.

( all this thanks to my observation of my dear friends.hehe)

LOVE is a powerful urge that if not protected well,can turn into HATE.
So if you think that you might hate a certain someone, you better make a move.
Hate don't give us any advantage. but Love does.
So keep on loving and don't stop searching.
GOODLUCK.

Something unexpected

Something happened. Something I never tot possible. I'm beginning to trust again. Although my guards are still up,I can't help but to trust this person. Should i or shouldn't i? I don't want history to be repeated again. but i just can't help myself. Is it too soon for me to say? It's just too good to be true. Like destiny wanted this to happened. But I'm afraid to take the chances. It's so odd that everything is soo smooth and warm. It's like i'm gonna have a new bff. And i like it. Hope this will lasts longer or better yet,lasts forever. I miss the feeling that i can rely on someone. I don't know it yet,but Allah sure have it all plan for us. :)

The way we were

I often wonder about our used-to-be friendship. And I wonder more often about the path that YOU chose. The friendship was so beautiful and we were so close. But you had to stab me in the back. Tell me why? The sorrows are endless and you suddenly becomes meaningless to me. Just so you know,IT IS OVER.

We can never be the way we WERE.

No matter how you say it,no matter how you see it,it shall never be reversed. I trusted you and now the bond is broken. how can you repair something that was so fragile to begin with? Now things are shattered and you are left ALONE. Yeah you read it right. You are alone and I'm still happy with the one I love. So tell me who's the fool in this game? It have been you all along. Emptiness and loneliness will once again be your company. And I do not pity you this time. Coz you deserve it. I never told anyone about what happened between us ; just as I promised you. But if one day the truth comes out,I hope that you won't run away. Or be a tongue twister and twist the whole story up. AGAIN. Man up and admit that you ARE wrong. As for me,I want nothing to do with you anymore. You shall be a memory of whom I should never have trusted.

Talking about love

Being in love is a beatiful thing isn't it? That is why most people ever think about is LOVE.LOVE.LOVE. Sometimes they ignore the feelings that they have because they are afraid of the consequences. But sometimes they are too frank about it until everyone knows. Which one is better? It depends on the situation. If you are sure that person is interested in you too,Then by all means,shout it out LOUD. But if that person is not sending the signals that they should've send,then just shut up since you might mess up what you had before. I know I'm not an expert in all of this stuff but I learn from others' experience. Being in love with someone doesn't mean that you can have them. You should be happy for them IF they choose someone else that can make them a lot happier than you can. Although it is heartbreaking but that just the way things are. And it is a lot nicer too since you can still be close to them other than be apart for the not-so-important reason. Sometimes you do feel the urge to tell that person what you really feel. You want to show them how much you care and so on. YEAH,I do know how that feels. But then,it's not your time nor your place to speak up. Hold on until the moment come. And if the moment never comes,then maybe you are not meant together. MAYBE. Keep in your mind that everything happens for a reason. And you should just adopt it. Allah have a better plan for us. You just have to believe.

I just can't take it anymore

I went home today and didn't expect to see my lovely cat,zorro to be suffering. He was diagnosed of having stone and should have it removed. I don't know the procedure but when I went home this afternoon,he was already in stiches. and also blood. He couldn't move. And he SHOULDN'T move. But he is just a cat. How can he understand that he was supposed to be resting and take his medicine. It was so hard watching he suffer. At first,I can still handle it. But seeing him move along with the pain,made me feel all his emotion *i know he's just a cat!* Then later tonight,which is just 5 minutes before I wrote this entry,I went to the kitchen cause I wanted to see how he was doing. He was crying *I know I can't understand him but I just felt it in my heart* and it that did it! I broke down crying in front of his cage. I'm not the type who likes to cry and so,THIS is a bit emotional for me. I can't bear the thought of losing him. Even he is just a cat,he have been with me all the time *when I'm at home*. He always came to me and sleep in front of the couch while I'm watching TV. And he knows when I'm sad and so,he would come and cuddle. I know it may sound rather foolish to certain people but to me,he IS important. He is my family and forever will be. I just hope that he will recover SOON. VERY SOON. For any of you reading this,please pray for his health. It would be a real help for me. Thank you very much.

*warning* this entry might have some gibberish talk

Don't u just envy someone who can wear almost anything and still looks good in it? Well,I do! Some people are just born with perfect figures,perfect aura,perfect attitude *haha.u know what i meant* They can pull off anything and people would still love them anyway. Sometimes I envy them but most of the time, I just HATE them. ngahaha. Jealous much. For instance,you make some trouble together but you were the only one who'll get blame for it. WTH?? Their "persona" seems to dazzle everyone around them. And so,people always neglect the fact that they ARE doing something wrong. As for the fact that they can wear the most ugly stuff and still looks HOT in it,well,I blame it on their D.N.A.But some people just wear their cloths with their attitude. Do you know what I mean? Ok. ok. It's like this. They most probably don't have the prettiest face and body but somehow when they wear something,they make the item looks like it's made just for them. How I wish I can pull it off like that. haha. I don't think I can do that and sell garments. LOL. There's always something wrong with what I wear and it's not the clothes fault. It's ME. I seems to lost my X factor somewhere in the sea. someone please find it back and send it to me so that I won't look like a total mess. hahaha. *as if I even HAD it* Waah. such nonsense I'm blabbering about right now.

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New experience

I never worked before. and it's NOT because I'm too lazy or whatever. It's jz bcoz my ummi is quite protective. huu~ I don't know where I got the idea from but I am now running a business. *chewaahh.sounds so fancy* hahaha. I always love to sell item to people and recommend good stuff or places to others but never knew there's actually a work for it. haha. And it's actually can provide me SOME money *not many k.some* Although it is not so profitable but I like it cause I'm learning and evolving. I got to try something new from different perspective. Before this,I love to took the time to compare the prices and search for cheaper price. and then I'll get better bargain. But now,I can make an income out of it. How awesome is that?! haha. But I have to admit la. I'm always a C>H>E>A>P>SHOPPER. hahaha.I was brought up that way and I'm proud of it *wink wink* But there is a negative thing going on here cause now,I can't think of anything else other than my business! haha. If I'm not a student,thet wouldn't be a big of a problem. In fact,it is a criteria of a will-be-successful-entrepreneur. But since I'm a student,it doesn't give me much advantage as I have to focus on my studies first. huu~ The only advantage that I gain is the income & experience. But who knows,it might be what I needed in the future.

Right?