It's as if the whole world is crashing down on me.

How can i describe what i'm feeling right now? I'm feeling low,sad and in total despair. Why does everything have to happen now? It's like the whole world is coming down on me and i'm crushing into bits of pieces. I'm not used to all this. and most of all,i'm not used of being ALONE. Whatever it is,i know i will survive. I got so many dear family and friends who loves me. They are my KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR. And I thank them from the bottom of my shattered heart. I'm a firm believer in "whatever happened,it happened for a reason",therefore I'm keeping my optimism mind and just go along where the road might take me. I believe Allah have a good plan for all of us and insyaAllah,EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE ALRIGHT. pray for me. please. :(

I'm sick of it!

Arghhh!!! ppl keep asking me questions.And questions. AND MORE QUESTIONS!!!! but i don't have the answer. I know you care but pls. This is not the right time to ask me all those DAMN question! You guys said that u are sad coz it happened. Now imagine how is my condition. The sadness n pain that you felt, multiply it by at least a thousand times. YES. THAT IS WHAT I'M FEELING RIGHT NOW. I know you don't see it. Coz i'm not good in expressing my feelings. but pls think logically. Who wouldn't feel sad if things like this happens to them?? I'm tired of thinking what went wrong etc etc. Right now I just wanna let this matter go for a while. I'm not running from my problems,I'm just giving myself some space. I already did everything that I could and right now HOPE is all I have. I'm just a mere human being. So please,just let it be. It will make it easier for bot of us. YOU & ME. tqvm

there's no fairytale for me

i guess i'm not one of the lucky girls out there that can live up to my fairytale life. I used to think that i am blessed cause i have found my other half. But it seems like i'm the only one who think of it that way. Somebody please come and wipe away all of those memories. cause now it only bring tears to my eyes.
I'm devastated. I'm heartbroken. I'm confuse.
Actually,I dunno what happened. It just happen. I'm shocked. but what more can i do? I've given my best n so be it. Right now i'm just looking forward to a better future. and hope that my prince charming will come.
*if he's out there,please come and find me.I'll be waiting.*
but until then,this heart won't open to anyone

Where do broken hearts go?

I was sitting alone when i remembered that song. "where do broken hearts go? can they find their way home?" Those lyrics kept on playing in my mind. and i know why. It's cause i'm feeling heartbroken n weak. I can merely manage a smile on my face. But i don't want others to know how devastated i am rite now. Not until the decision is final. Rite now i'm juz grieving. But i do believe that everything happens for a reason. And for that,I juz keep on hoping for the best. Dear friends,do pray for me too ;(

The truth is...

The truth is...Aku x pernah rse confident kat dri sendiri.. Sume org kat sekeliling aku terlalu perfect utk dibandingkan ngan aku yg xde pape ni.. mereka cukup sempurna n mereka ade kelebihan masing2.. tp aku x nmpk kt mne kelebihan aku.. LANGSUNG XDE.. rse pathetic gle.. haishh. aku hanya mampu tgk je kwn2,cousin2 n family aku yg perfect tu.. aku rse mcm xde tempat utk aku.. aku da try jdk sehabis baik yang aku bleh tp mcm sume usaha aku tu sia2 je. mcm xde sape hargai pun.. sbnrnye aku just nk tgk sket appreciation.. tp maybe aku yang x layak utk dpt sume tu.. tp slalu ak pk,ape motif aku wujud kt dunia ni klw x dpt menyenangkan ati sape2? kebanyakkan mase aku abis ble aku pk psl sume ni.. tp aku sedar.. aku kne bersyukur ngan ape yang aku ade.. just,xde sape pnah tau yg sebenarnye, aku always rase INSECURED....

thanx coz sedarkan aku..

aku mmg bkn ditakdirkan menjadi seorang manusia yang manis mulutnya dan sememangnya x pandai mengarang. haha. selalu dlm blog ni pn aku merapu je. sekadar tempat untuk meluahkan perasaan. tapi aku kagum dengan kehebatan manusia2 plastik yang selalu aku jumpa dalam hayat idup aku yang singkat ni. mereka sangat pandai berkata2 sampai semua orang percaya. mereka pandai berlakon sampai sume orang terpedaya. bilakah sarung plastik mereka akan terbukak atau plastik tu akan menjerut mereka sehingga mati? haha. kejam sungguh ayat aku. tapi aku akui,memang susah nak jumpa dgn org yang betul2 jujur. kalau aku cakap ak nk kawan ngan non smokers je,rmi org akn cakap "jangan berangan laa..sekarang almost sume smoking okeh". tapi aku xnak lost all hope coz ALMOST tu means ade lagi mereka yg kat luar sne yg x smoke kn. camtu jgk ngn plastik people ni. aku nak mereka bukak sume masks mereka dan tunjukkan kat aku muka sebenar dorang. Aku x pernah cakap yang aku perfect. malah,aku jauh sekali lari dari kategori BAIK. aku hanya seorang insan biasa yang tiada apa2 kelebihan. dan aku hanya nak kongsikan apa yang aku ada ni dengan orang yang boleh memahami dan terima aku seadanya. BUKAN berkongsi dengan mereka yang PLASTIK. sebab mereka hanya akan memusnahkan kepercayaan aku terhadap sume orang kat dunia ni. Dulu,ada satu peristiwa yang terjadi. Peristiwa tu menyedarkan aku yang aku sebenarnya seorang yang lurus dan senang ditipu. aku senang dibuli dan juga diambil kesempatan. "DIA" telah sedarkan aku yang x semua orang yang kita rapat boleh dipercayai. "DIA" yang buatkan aku x mampu lagi untuk berkawan dan juga mempercayai sesiapa yang sekaum dengannya. mungkin ramai yang tertanya2 apa yang si "DIA" ni da wat. sbnrnye si "DIA" ni telah menimbulkan fitnah yang x pernah wujud. Aku sedih yang teramat sebab aku yang jadi mangsa. aku x cerita pada siapa2 coz aku xnak "DIA" hilang kawan. tapi xpe.. aku percaya ALLAH lagi sayang kat aku coz sekarang,"DIA" yang merana. haishh.panjang lebar lak aku type ni. n baru aku perasan skema ayat aku rupanya. hahaha. LAYAN JELAAA..

unforgettable

Oh Oh Ohh
I'm Unforgettable
yeah Ohh

[Verse 1:]
You wanted it your way
And boy you know I said okay
Now you only have yourself to blame(whoa whoa)
Cause when we were together
You'd tell me what you didn't like
And now you went out and got "the type"
(ummm)

From the get go
Boy I told you
That she'll never
Give you what you need
But you didn't care
Why you calling me?

[Chorus:]
So you miss me
So you miss us
More than you ever done before
Why you want me?
You were in love
It was undeniable
So I..
Sit and laugh
While you grieve
Boy you had it your way
you knew this
Before you chose to go
I'm Unforgettable
Uh-huh
Uh-huh
I'm Unforgettable
Uh-huh
Uh-huh

[Verse 2:]
Now your heart is aching
And you say you didn't know
But I got to say I told you so
(whoa whoa)
And now you keep saying
That everything has changed
You wanna give it all you got again

From the get go
Boy I told you
That she'll never
Give you what you need
But you didn't care
Why you calling me?

[Chorus:]
So you miss me
So you miss us
More than you ever done before
So, Why you want me?
You were in love
It was undeniable
So I..
Sit and laugh
While you grieve
Boy you had it your way
you knew this
Before you choose to go
I'm Unforgettable

[Bridge:]
I had a hard time to believe (umm)
That you choose her instead of me
Well boy just go out and see
But there's no better (no better)
No better than me
(I'm Unforgettable)
No one
No one
Better than me
I'm Unforgettable


So you miss me
So you miss us
More than you ever done before
Why you want me?
You were in love
It was undeniable
So I..
Sit and laugh
While you grieve
Boy you had it your way
you knew this
Before you choose to go
I'm Unforgettable