Down & low

I never felt this low before. never in my life that i doubt my ability to be happy. but these past few days have turned my world around.
I have realized that I can no longer be happy and cheerful as I used to be.
It will take me double the time to trust the people around me.
It will take less to make me feel down.
Truth be told, I have lost my sense of identity.
I have lost my ability of being ME.